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Aku sedar betapa hinanya

Ku di matamu

Namun jika ku diperlukan, dan diterima

Izinkan ku menagih kasihmu

Namun jika ku ditolak, tak diperlukan

Buang segala tentang ku

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Dan kau membuang diriku sesuka hatimu

Dan memilih dia

Dan ku tersandar begini

Meratapi hati yang telah dilukai

Aku sedar betapa hinanya

Ku di matamu

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Missing someone? Missing you sweetheart

Hello.

I was wondering about human relationships and their purposes and this 2 questions came to my mind:

What makes us miss someone?

Is there some kind of relation between the feeling of missing someone and what that someone still has to teach us?

Missing someone you love can cause extreme melancholy.

Sometimes, it is much harder to fall asleep at night when you are missing someone.  Is it normal that you can’t sleep at night when you are missing someone? Of course, it’s absolutely normal. Most often when your mind is occupied with a lot of things, falling asleep can be very difficult. Sometimes you just don’t know when you can fall asleep when you’re thinking about someone. You’ll spend sleepless nights thinking about a certain person and the only thing you wish you had was the best telescope to see your favorite person on the other side. The best thing to do is to throw away those thoughts and get a good night sleep.

Have you ever missed someone so much that even the thought of them made you burst into tears?

Sometimes, it’s not just about missing someone, it’s wondering if they’re missing you too.

I miss our conversations; I miss how we used to talk every minute of everyday and how I was about to everything that was on my mind.

A million times I’ve needed you; A million times I’ve cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place no one else can ever fill. 

I need you because you make me laugh more than anyone else, and I’m the best me when I’m with you. And because when you’re gone, nothing feels right until you return.

You are near, Even if I don’t see you. You are with me, even if you are far away. You are in my heart, in my thoughts, in my life always.

The truth is, I miss you. All the time, every second, every minute, every hour, every day.

i miss you so much kns :(

Tak Pernah Hilang

tiada siapa yang pernah tahu
tiada siap yang pernah rasa
biar mereka cuba mau, cuba ada denganku

mestikah kau perlu menjauh
mestikah kau perlu menghalang
perasaan yang pernah datang
yang tak pernah hilang

aku yang merindumu
selalu menantikan dirimu
yang selalu memahami
tiap getar hatimu

jika aku yang engkau ingin
ku nantikan satu jawapan
perasaan yang pernah datang
yang tak pernah hilang

aku yang merindumu
selalu menantikan dirimu
yang selalu memahami
tiap getar hatimu

18 08 2018 Relationship Advice

18.08.2018

I know it's sound silly but I really excited when its come to beautiful date like today 18/8/2018. Normally every beautiful date i'd done something to make it memorable. I know its random but lets post something today!

Relationship Advice 

If someone wants to spend time with you, they will make time for you.

“If someone wants to spend time with you, they will make time for you.”

Don’t fall in love with someone’s potential.

“This is what I came here to say. Don’t fall in love with someone’s potential. Don’t have a list of things in your head that ‘when they grow up and start to do these things THEN I can be happy.’ Go on what they’re like right now and cut short any fantasies or plans to encourage them to change.”

When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

“When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

Pay attention to actions and patterns of behavior. He may insist that he loves you, that he cares about you, that he respects you. He may feel something very strongly for you, and he may truly believe what he’s saying. If the way he treats you isn’t loving, or if it’s careless or disrespectful, walk away.

Hold out for someone who consistently treats you well.

Be an adult about your feelings, good or bad.

"Be an adult about your feelings, good or bad. Playing cute at this stage isn’t really being honest with yourself or the other person. Don’t gloss over things that make you mad or irritated or hurt because they build and turn something minor into a huge wall to get over.”

 If someone shows you that they don’t want you, just walk away.

“If someone shows you that they don’t want you, just walk away. Don’t cling, or freak out, or try to make them see how awesome you are; they don’t and they won’t. Keep your dignity and use that energy for something, or someone else.”

Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just an option.

“Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just an option. If he cheats on you, leave them. They may promise up and down it was a mistake, more often than not it is some indication of their quality as a person, and how much they respect you.”

 Don’t move too fast.

“Don’t move too fast. Experience your relationship and allow time to show you who your chosen one really is. About 90% of my friends who married before one year of knowing someone are divorced now; just food for thought.”

 Don’t compare your timeline to anyone else’s.

“Don’t compare your timeline to anyone else’s. Don’t feel like you’re missing out on something because all of your friends are getting married or having babies before you. Also you are so much younger than you think you are.”

 Be with someone whom you love and respect.

“Don’t stay with someone just because they are good at being a boyfriend and do all the nice boyfriend duties—be with someone whom you love and respect.

On the flip side, don’t date someone who is dreamy and charming who sucks at doing the boyfriend things—be with someone who loves and respects you.”

Live your life. Be your best self. Grow as a person and work on self-improving. Make that your focus. Once all of this is in place or in progress, relationships will become easier and finding a partner will become easier. You will also attract better people. 

You Are Never Alone

Close your eyes for a moment. Breathe in. Slow the world down, just for a second. Let yourself exist in the now—not in all the things you have to do or places you have to be—but right here.

I want you to know something. I want you to read these words and find comfort somewhere in the pit of your stomach. You will see so much pain in this life. You will find yourself face-down in the dirt time after time. You will lose people you love. You will want to just quit.

But in every trial, in every hardship, in every broken piece—you are not alone.

You do not walk this earth by yourself. You are not meant to fight battles solo, or to always count on your own strength to carry you through. Because sometimes you will not feel strong. Sometimes you will not be able to pick yourself up. Sometimes you will feel so tired, even lifting your head from the pillow is an accomplishment.

And on those hard days, I want you to know that someone is fighting for you. Someone has, and always will be fighting for you.

I want you to know that no matter where you wander, no matter what you face, no matter how happy or empty you feel inside, there is someone who is knocking at your front door, begging to be let in. He is standing there, open-armed, with a gift in His hands.

And He wants to carry you when you cannot carry yourself.

Please let Him in. Please open the door and show Him the mess of your life. Show Him every broken piece, shattered on the floor. Show Him your hurting heart, your aches, your bruises, your loss of trust. Show Him how scared you are to love again. Show Him that you’re angry and bitter because He took your loved ones too soon. Show Him that you’re sad and tired and lonely and scared. Show Him that you don’t want to face another day.

And let Him show you, you are loved.

Let Him reach for you and pull you into His embrace. Let Him wipe your tears and lift your burdens. Let Him strengthen your heart and show you the sun, the warmth, the light again. Let Him hold you until you stop shaking. Let Him soothe your anxieties and drown out your insecurities.

Let Him show you that you don’t have to be scared to live anymore. Because wherever you go and whatever you do, He will stand by your side.

You are not alone. You have never been alone.

So let Him in. Open. Let His love to fill your heart. Know that no matter what the days bring you, there is a Protector watching over you. Know that in His light, you are found, loved, and whole.

And sit here, in this moment, in the now. Close your eyes, breathe in, and know you are not alone, not anymore, and not ever.

You Have To Love An Introvert Differently

You have to love us patiently. As an introvert, we like to take things slow. You have to accept that it is simply how we are wired — we reflect on every experience we have, we think things through, we take time to process how we are feeling. You cannot take offense to this. When you love an introvert you have to build a foundation with them, you have to give them the time to invite you in.

You have to open up to us in order to keep us interested. Introverts admire deep conversations. It is often difficult to date, because we don’t find validation in the fleeting attention that modern relationships provide. We want to know what inspires you, what sets your soul on fire. We want to talk to you about ideas, and goals; we want to immerse ourselves in your dreams and in your wild imagination.

You have to love us quietly. Introverts do not like loud relationships. We do not need our photo posted on Instagram all the time, and large displays of public affection can cause us to feel anxious. When you love an introvert, love them softly. Have a coffee waiting for them in the morning. Love them intimately.

You have to respect our reflection. Introverts have a raucous imagination. We have a very chaotic world inside of our head. We think, and overthink; we dream in hues and music, we create stories in our minds. Sometimes we get carried away in those stories, in those reveries. Don’t take this personally — we are not ignoring you. When we are quiet, we are stargazing in our own brains, we are in a completely different place. We are not sad, or depressed, or antisocial. We are exploring our thoughts.

You have to let us recharge. Introverts energize themselves differently than others. We stay in our rooms, reading books and getting lost in songs. We don’t need space because we want to break up, or because we don’t want to spend time with you. We need space because that is how we nourish ourselves, that is how we feed our souls.

You have to come to terms with how we love. Introverts have very small social circles, and it takes a lot for us to let people in. We may not always talk about our feelings, because words are too simple to express our deep emotions, but if we have made you a part of our life, know that we care for you. Know that you are special, for that is how we show our adoration; that is our highest form of intimacy and our most beloved gift.

I dont care anymore

Do you too feel like saying “I don’t care” to few things in life? 

Everyone experiences a moment in life when you get so exhausted that you just officially don’t care

anymore. 

Life is better when you stop caring too much.

— Once you do this, you will be free from headaches about what he/she is doing, so and so. Honestly, living life without tensions, seems nothing less than eternity ?

The moment you stop caring is the moment when things get better. Don’t waste your time trying to please others.

— Trying to please everyone is a waste of your own self and your precious time. Be normal and do things normally, those who like you will like your moves too.

 Just a reminder, what other people think of you is none of your business.

— You’ve got no control over people’s thinking about you, so just leave them with their thinking. Be good in your own skin.

The easiest way to avoid getting hurt is to stop caring but not caring is the hardest thing to do.

— Sometimes no matter how hard you try not to care about someone, you will be bound to care about him/her. But that’s an exception, try to careless if you want to get hurt less.

Don’t be mad because I don’t care anymore. Be mad because I once did, and you were too blind to see.

— People don’t often notice how much you care for them until you stop doing it. However, if you feel that it is too much, just give up on it. You will have a better life then, not immediately but definitely.

Ignore those people who talk about you behind your back, that’s where they belong.

— Be happy that god gave you such a personality that people can only talk about it behind your back. They don’t have the guts to say it face-to-face.

Sometimes the only choice left to do is to stop caring. Make a pace and move forward no matter how it hurts because there is no reason to stay anymore.

— Clinging on to something will only hurt you more. Pick yourself up, and move on. Moving on is a part of growing up, and you should be happy that you got such an experience.

The older you get the more you stop caring about things you thought you would never stop caring about.

— Because, the older you get, the better you get at prioritizing things. You know which things are worth your time and attention and which are simply a junk in your life.



Working hard for something we don’t care about is called stress; working hard for something we love is called passion.

— Too much of stress or passion, is both injurious to health.? Make sure, your passion doesn’t make you too blind to know, what you are doing is right or not.

Why stick towards someone who doesn’t want you in their life? Simply tell them that you are moving away, and you didn’t care about it anymore.

Sakit

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Rahsia Kita

Currently I addicted to this one song. The lyrics for me meaningful.

Rahsia Kita - Khai Bahar & Fatin Husna

angin perlahan menyentuh jantungku

bercerita tentang kita

tak ku temukan sebuah jawapan

dalam ketenangan

haruskah ku simpan semuanya

rahsia antara kita berdua

bakal kau temui setelah ku tiada

tak ku sangka sesuatu darimu

indah umpama langit

namun akhirnya dirimu

membuatkan aku terluka

hati meruntun mencari pandangan

akhirkan tak kelihatan

tak ku temukan sebuah jawapan

dalam kepalsuan

haruskah ku simpan semuanya

rahsia antara kita berdua

bakal kau temui setelah ku tiada

tak ku sangka sesuatu darimu

indah umpama langit

namun akhirnya dirimu

membuatkan aku terluka

nafas menanti kepastian

hilang cari jawapan

cintamu pada diriku

terhenti buat seketika

tak ku sangka sesuatu darimu

indah umpama langit

namun akhirnya dirimu

membuatkan aku terluka

nafas menanti kepastian

hilang cari jawapan

cintamu pada diriku

terhenti buat seketika

The video acoustics version

Past is past

We always know that the fact people always judge a book by its cover. It's infinitely harder to judge someone once you've heard their story. Their unfiltered, unedited, terrifyingly 

real story of everything they've seen, felt, experienced and endured. 

The story that everyone has, that explains why they are who they 

are.

Be grateful every time someone is brave enough to tell you their

story.

I've spent most of my life striving to be great, or perfect, at something, instead of just trying to be good... to me, to you, to the world. 

I am so glad I have struggled. It reminds me of what I can endure, and what human beings are capable of surviving. -Erin Forquer

You might hate parts of your past.. you might think they make you weaker than others. But by the sheer act of surviving them, enduring through the painful, or even shameful parts.. that is what makes you infinitely stronger than those who have been privileged with an "easier" life. It's a blessing and a curse. But it is also, undoubtedly, all the evidence you will ever need of your own strength.