Week after week. Month after month. Year after year.
But today? Well, today I am struggling. Today, I don’t feel like writing. Today, I don’t feel like sticking to the routine. Today, I feel like giving up. Seriously :(
It’s so easy to consider giving up when we live with daily pain, to just let the world go by and not face the day.
Have you ever felt that you just couldn’t take it anymore? Have you ever considered giving up and giving into the pain, to the side effects that go along with the medicines you have to take?
The choice we must make is how we are going to handle our day. For me, it’s often tempting just to stay in bed and pull the covers back over my head and try to forget life. However, I know that while it sounds like a good way to escape, it’s not really the best for me.
It allows me to lay there and focus on my problems instead of getting up and relying on God to help me get through the day. Feeling sorry for myself just feeds my self-pity and my sense of hopelessness about the future.
The problem is He is often the last resort we turn to when we feel like giving up. It’s much easier to take that pain pill or, like me, try to sleep through it all.
God wants us to turn to Him when we feel we cannot endure another moment. He wants us to cry out to Him in our suffering and our discomfort. He desires to be the one that soothes us, that gives us solace, that holds us in His arms and quietly rocks us back and forth.
He wants us to learn, deep down, that He is the one we need to rely on.It can be so hard to remember that God really loves us when we’re in the midst of mind-numbing pain or are dealing with another day of not being able to sleep. But, He does love us and He is waiting to show you.
All you need to do is cry out to Him and ask Him to comfort you. He may not take away the pain or the sickness, but I have discovered that He will give you the comfort you need for that moment. And for the next moment. And, also for the next moment.
So, what do I do when I feel like giving up? I show up.
Do I show up at my best? I doubt it. But my job isn’t to judge how good or how bad I am
